I put Day 3 in quotes because I basically fail at this challenge thing. There has definitely been more than three days since I started the challenge. But lets pretend.
Well, there are my irrational fears, but they have hardly any bearing on my day-to-day life. My fear of old school Oompa Loompas stems from watching Willy Wonka as a child, followed by nightmares of being turned into a blueberry and juiced. I guess I'm also really afraid of whales/other large sea creatures, but you just don't run into those very often.
One realistic fear I have is having problems with my car. That is one of the only things that will fill me with instant terror and dread. Mostly because in my financial situation I wouldn't be able to simply have it fixed. My car represents my independence, as it makes it possible for me to get anywhere I want/need to go(sometimes on a whim). Without my car, I would either be stuck in the same place forever, or would constantly depend on others for rides, and both outcomes are the shittiest thing ever. I will never take having a working car for granted.
If you want to get deep and psychological, I suppose my ultimate fear is death. Or rather, that nothing happens after you die. From childhood to present, I've had occasional nightmares involving just plain dying. The cause is usually unknown. The dream just involves me waiting around for everything to just stop existing, for my perception to just end. The thought of that simply terrifies me; I like that my perception exists...
So I guess any day that I'm not dying in a car accident with an Oompa Loompa is a good one.
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